C-Word, Part 2!

I thought I would write a little follow up to let everyone know how I'm doing since I've been asked a bunch of times. I don't mind all of the questions and kind words, I really don't!  But instead of repeating myself 200 times...here it is! And again, thank you everyone for all of your well wishes, it really means a lot to me!

It's been 15 days since my second surgery to remove the right side of my thyroid.  My final pathology report came back a few days after the second surgery and there was a 1mm spot of cancer on the right side as well.  So it's a good thing that when there's cancer on one side they take out the other side just to be sure.  So now I don't have a thyroid and I'm tired. ALL THE TIME.  I feel like I could nod off and sleep for 10 hours at any given second.  And I'm cold all the time lately, which is different because I used to be hot all the time.  Or maybe that just has to do with the lovely weather we are having. :)  I just drank a triple latte and a big cup of strong black coffee and I could go to sleep for the rest of the day.  But I've lost ten pounds since surgery, so that's a good thing.  Because I spend all my time sleeping instead of shoving my face? It's a possibility.

Tomorrow I go back to the surgeon for a post op visit so she can take a look at her handiwork on my throat and make sure it's healing well, which it is.  It seriously looks like someone sliced my neck wide open, it's pretty sweet.  I can't feel the scar when I touch it.  It should fade away completely.  And three weeks after that I see the Endocrinologist again to discuss radiation treatments and such.  That'll be fun!

I tried 8 times to spin this stupid fucking picture around the other way but I can't do it!  Ughhh!!! Just tilt your head to the left. :)

So until then, if we happen to cross paths and you wave at me and I respond with a yawn and a zombie-like stare, don't take it personally.  I am struggling every second of the day to stay awake.  It's not you, it's thanks to cancer.   No matter how many vats of coffee that I try to ingest, I feel like a lethargic piece of crap almost all hours I am awake.  Drained, crippled, debilitated, spent, bleary, dog-tired, outta gas, ready to crap out, no matter how you put it, there are no words to describe it.  I hate it.  I absolutely hate it.  

I wasn't very good at following doctor's orders after surgery either, which was to take it easy and rest.  The whole weekend before my second surgery we spent deer hunting and the morning of the surgery we hunted for a few hours before I had to head back.  And a day and a half after surgery we were back out in the woods.  I don't do well with laying around and resting and taking it easy.  I get bored and anxious and I can only watch so much TV before I want to scream.  Which is probably why I'm not feeling so hot lately and am dragging ass a few weeks later?  Thanks, my mom already lectured me.  :)

Me, at work most days. 

So yeah.  It's been a pretty crappy end to 2013 with my Grandma passing away, the hectic craziness of moving out of state, a cancer diagnosis, two surgeries, my niece being born a month early, all in the middle of the holidays.  But our family has been pretty blessed thus far without any major issues, so I guess it was our turn.  But as always, we come out fighting and we will win.  We always do.

Happy Holidays and Happy New Year to All! 

This Alpaca is a PIMP!